DAYS 4 & 5

So maybe not a fake, I feel weird today, can’t quite put my finger on why.  I want to curl into a ball and sleep.  I am so tired.  I want to get-up but am having trouble convincing myself to.  Wayne thinks I should be up and moving and even out for a walk.  I agree with him, but something inside just say……. Noooo lie down go to sleep… and I do.  I sleep, I wake, I sleep, I wake, celebrate how well Conrad’s Whitecliffe interview went (love seeing him buzzing over things like this), I go back to sleep.

With some effort I pull myself together and get up and go for a walk to the corner, must say that the walk back from the corner was one long struggle.  But at least I can tell Wayne that I did it!  Then back to the sofa.  Thinking I could settle in here and hide till I feel better.  At least while I am asleep I don’t feel nauseated or have a crampy tum or headache or woozie or just plain weird.  Sleep hides all that.

But OH No I forgot one little thing……… The injection I have to have 24 hours after finishing Chemo.  How could I forget that, but I did.  Fortunately, Sarah hadn’t and was so good about this absolute woose wriggling and making crying noises, hoping she would take pity on me and say she couldn’t do it.  Nope.  Thank you, Sarah, I do appreciate all you do.

Days 4 and 5 seem to be the bad ones, the tiredness, the stomach cramps, the chemo brain.  Yup Chemo Brain, I went to the supermarket and found myself wandering round in a daze.  You should see what I bought, anything that took my fancy, things I would never usually buy; Smooze Balls, Lollies, Spirulina Powder, more lollies and all I wanted was Cat Biscuits.  So, note to self, remember not to go shopping when I feel like this again.

The Dr tweaks my pill regime slightly and after 2 days of popping pills to stop everything coming up again and more pills to stop losing everything the other direction, I am hoping that Day 6 will be an improvement.