“The happiness of your life depends on the quality of your thoughts”.
I don’t know who said this, but it came to mind this morning as I was on my walk enjoying the sunshine and the spring flowers. All helping to make me feel very positive.
I have been thinking a lot over the weekend as to why I have remained so positive over the last year. The reality is that I could have curled up in a ball and just given up. I could have said enough is enough, we have been through enough. I can’t do this anymore.
But I didn’t. What was it in me that kicked in and made me fight, made me put that positive face on to the world and force myself to see the positive and the humour in my situation and not dwell on the bad.
Believe me, there have been times when I have not wanted to get out of bed or couldn’t get out of bed to the bathroom fast enough! There have been times when the pain has been so bad that I have considered that perhaps giving up would be easier. There have been times when the tears have rolled down and I didn’t know how to stop them. There have been times when I have got so angry that this has happened I wanted to hit something or someone.
But I have always got up again, pulled myself together and taken that step forward, put the smile back on my face and tried to find some humour in the situation I find myself in.
What is it that was born in me to try to always find the positive side of things. What makes me different?
While I was on my walk this morning I was loving the feeling that the sun is warming up. The appearance of the blossom on the trees and the spring flowers bursting to life. I have always thought Summer was my favourite season, but I now think it is actually Spring.
The hint of the chill still in the air to remind me of what I have been through, but all the hope springing forward can only but put a smile on my face and a song in my heart (because I don’t sing out loud apart from in the car with the radio turned up to drown me out) and an excitement for what’s coming next for me